Wednesday, August 19, 2009

What to do?

It’s really weird when I was first diagnosed with a mental illness, I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to leave my bedroom or in the case when I just got out of the hospital, the room I was staying at the recovery house. I have always said that half the battle of mental illness is getting out of bed in the morning. I still have those days where I don’t want to get out of bed because it is a big scary world out there!

However, now that I am over nine years in therapy, I feel like my day is always planned out for me, doctors’ appointments, group therapies, reaching out to friends so I don’t isolate. Yeah, that’s still a problem for me. I tend to hang out with my parents and my Uncle Jim a lot more than my friends. However, I am ALWAYS DOING SOMETHING. And guess what? I fell and twisted my knee! I don’t even know how to spell the name of the thing they said was broken. It’s soft tissue in my knee, something between my knee bones where the two bones meet at the joint. I know this because the REALLY cute P.A. showed me exactly what he thought it was. OMG… this P.A. looked around my age and he had NO ring on his left hand. I digress though; this is not about hot P.A.s I met in my adventures of being sick all the time.

What this is about is the fact that my knee hurts and I am not supposed to be doing ANYTHING! It’s hard. I feel like I should just go for a walk or something! I still go to my group therapy and I went for an MRI today (for the knee). However, I can’t just sit and watch T.V. It’s like the mental health system has programmed me to not be standing still for one minute. I am actually washing my clothes today which I shouldn’t be doing. I feel stuck. In limbo.


  1. Once you get into the habit of having your days planned and you're always on the move it's hard to spend a day just chillin'. I hope your knee gets better soon.

  2. Hope your knee gets well soon!! :-)
    You sound like me, staying busy busy!
    Oh and I gave you the wrong info on that newsletter.
    It is and I get their email newsletter.
    Take it easy and let that knee heal!
    Janet in TN

  3. As you know, this is something I am working on - getting moving and staying on the move. It's a good habit to be in, even though you must be frustrated now you are incapacitated. Hope your knee feels better soon!

  4. Thank you all for the healing well wishes. In particular thank you Lil!