Saturday, September 12, 2009

An Invisible Disablity


I have written a lot what it is like living with an invisible disability, but I haven’t explained what an invisible disability is. There are a lot of people with lost limbs, blindness, and even mental development problems. However, what about people with mental illness? Can you tell the difference? I am sure the check out lady at Price Chopper where I get my grocery doesn’t know I have a mental illness. I am sure the man that usually sits across from me at church on Sunday doesn’t know I have mental illness. I am sure the family that lives across the street from me, that the only contact I have with is a simple wave, doesn’t know that I have a mental illness.

I think that’s why it’s so hard to get out of bed in the morning. We, mentally ill, don’t know if we are going to do something like lay on floor in church and cry (like I did) to let our invisible disability away. We don’t know if we go on a date with someone and things get serious when the right time to tell that special someone is. We don’t know if we will do well at work. As long as we stay in that bed, then no one has to know. I know I didn’t go to my high school reunion because as far as those people know I am still only 135lbs and have a degree from the college I originally got my scholarship to.

Maybe it would be easier for us if people could see? I mean then we wouldn’t have to explain why it took eight years to get a degree, or why we don’t know about having kids, or why we need more time at work. I mean maybe if people could see then we wouldn’t hide in the shadows. I remember my first inpatient visit to the unit, when I was first diagnosed, they told me not to tell anyone I didn’t want too. I felt like I should keep it a big ugly secret.

Well people I write this because mental illness, while an invisible disability, shouldn’t be in the shadows. It’s shouldn’t be a big ugly secret! If we all wake up to that fact, then we might realize that the lady in church, or the man next door, or the people in the grocery store have a mental illness too! It could even be that dream guy we met across the room at a party. Everybody lets stand up and say it may not be something you can see, but I do have a disability that I can overcome, and you can learn about!

7 comments:

  1. This is something I struggle with, LA, thank you for posting. You are so right, that we shouldn't have to lie about our mental illness or feel ashamed.

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  2. thanks for understanding Lil. I am looking for the next generation to be able to talk about their mental illness. If we fight now, then things will change. The problem is to change it we have to talk about our invisible disablity. It takes brave souls.
    Hugs,
    LA

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  3. Thanks Drifter,
    I am glad you liked it.
    Hugs,
    LA

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  4. Amanda, you are so brave...I hope you know that!

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  5. One step at a time and the more we educate the more people may understand.

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  6. Amber, I don't feel brave when I get symptoms, but I am learning to listen to the compiments people give me! Thanks Amber, Amanda

    Val, we most certainly have to educate people!

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